Androgeny

This morning I was feeling empowered and full of creative ideas. As a gesture to honor my inner Male, I drew a moustache and soul patch on with watercolor pencils, took a picture of the results and posted it on facebook as my profile picture.
Roy was somehow disturbed by this so he took it upon himself to pin me down and wipe it off.  He is such an asshole. I do not want to hang around with someone who does not honor my playful, creative side.
Earlier he was telling me stories of his sordid past and I was telling him he could trade his ugly stories into a new beautiful life by finding a way to convert them to a marketable form such as a screenplay.Fuck him. let him wallow in his interminable misery. 
I will just follow my own good advice. It will give me a better way to deal with the reality of dealing with this bully. He is so full of his own shit that he has no room for anything else.

I've had enough. I want my life back.

Nobody reads m stuff anyway so it doesn'tmatter what I say.

Today he was horrible.After  a week when he knocked me to the floor, took my debit card while I was sleeping and lost $50.00 playing poker online. He wanted to have sex with me and I was not into having him touch me so he forced me.He also threw my mouse against the wal land smashed it. He ripped pages out of my journal. I can't do this anymore.He says I am so negative and no on will wantto be with me. Please dear Higher power, help me get out of this.

Eclipse

I am not talking anymore. I am so sick of words in general, which is why I like to draw and dance and why I like music so much. The only point of life is to enjoy it.

Square one

This is as good a place as any to start out. I have no goals here except to take a look at where I am at. I actually have nothing better to do.
"Just look around and notice where you are Just look around and notice what you see
Each moment born for you innocently".
I am happy with here and now.
T'is a gift to be simple, t'is a gift to be free."